HOLIDAY!
这个term break，还不如上学。连想和JJ定下逛街的日子都难。
Taekwondo也有不少东西要上手。虽然Senior说，没关系，有问题我可以帮你，但毕竟理应是自己担下来的责任，份内的事。
而且，越是做到这个份上，越要搞好人际关系，一点马虎不得。对我来说还好，本来我也不善与人交恶，只是要更主动一点。原本很是意外，我们club也有politics，后来就接受了，还好只是少数人，顺其自然吧。很多事情，看到的只是表面。
夜宴，勇敢地看完了。还不赖。除了若干多余的武打，突兀的情节跳跃，结局太莎士比亚之外，比之无极要强太多了。那首越女歌真是好听，是周迅的声音吗，真有大明宫词的感觉。情节方面还挺吸引人的，尤其结尾的高潮部分。
PPLive上终于放水浒无间道了，可爱的张智霖和王喜，十分恶搞。
MAF要回HC好好玩一下。
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晚上下楼，把书pass给桃子。似乎她和jiajing在聊桃子的感情问题。我一来，便断了。然后桃子便再也不肯开口细谈了。或埋头书中，或打诨而过。不知是不是我过于敏感，她的神色大有希望我快点上楼的意思。
虽然知道，这是人之常情，不可勉强，可还是有点小受伤。原来，在自以为熟捻的朋友面前拒绝对方，是这么一件伤人的事。我好像也干过。把底线划得过于大，又不懂照顾对方心情。自己心情至上。
在准备明天AGM的speech，回想我这一年，性格方面，自认为改变蛮大的。真的可归功于TKD。
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最近失眠。进了大学后，便经常如此。不知为何，头昏脑胀得厉害，却倔强地不入眠。为何如此不安。可是有什么结不解？自己却原来最不明白自己。
细想以前初中也是如此。神经敏感，无端比别人多了许多不足道的心事，让众多理当一瞬即过的小情绪盘旋，回味许久。不懂疏解。
也从不松口说自己压力大。压力来时，只一味承受。现在总算会辨别，若一闭眼，那满天的被放大几十倍面积的景象扑面而来，便是压力过大了。学会辨别，只是第一步。
要学的，还很多。包括学会了解自己，控制自己，什么方法对自己最有效，最好。
很多时候，我很想像嘴上说的那样轻松，不在乎。
可小小的失眠，其实是告诉我，我在乎太多东西了。
Quotations for INFP--Idealists:
They are on a continuous mission to find the truth and meaning underlying things. Every encounter and every piece of knowledge gained gets sifted through the INFP's value system, and is evaluated to see if it has any potential to help the INFP define or refine their own path in life.INFPs do not like conflict, and go to great lengths to avoid it. If they must face it, they will always approach it from the perspective of their feelings. In conflict situations, INFPs place little importance on who is right and who is wrong. They focus on the way that the conflict makes them feel, and indeed don't really care whether or not they're right. They don't want to feel badly. This trait sometimes makes them appear irrational and illogical in conflict situations.INFPs have very high standards and are perfectionists. Consequently, they are usually hard on themselves, and don't give themselves enough credit. INFPs may have problems working on a project in a group, because their standards are likely to be higher than other members' of the group. In group situations, they may have a "control" problem. The INFP needs to work on balancing their high ideals with the requirements of every day living. Without resolving this conflict, they will never be happy with themselves, and they may become confused and paralyzed about what to do with their lives.该说什么呢。怎么才能让自己满意呢。看来我该再看一遍野猪大改造了。
小插曲
最近Messenger问题多多，极不稳定。Error code 81000314 & 80072745 交替出现。在网上搜到不少解决方法。干脆一个个试过，最后也不知是被我弄好了，还是server自己好了。一上线，半夜12点不到，才6人online。唉～那我忙活什么呀。
Diamonds and Rust
之前看洪晃的blog，看到的那首歌，终于找了出来。连着听了一礼拜，还未听厌。附歌词如下：
Well I'll be damned
Here comes your ghost again
But that's not unusual
It's just that the moon is full
And you happened to call
And here I sit
Hand on the telephone
Hearing a voice I'd known
A couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall
As I remember your eyes
Were bluer than robin's eggs
My poetry was lousy you said
Where are you calling from?
A booth in the midwest
Ten years ago
I bought you some cufflinks
You brought me something
We both know what memories can bring
They bring diamonds and rust
Well you burst on the scene
Already a legend
The unwashed phenomenon
The original vagabond
You strayed into my arms
And there you stayed
Temporarily lost at sea
The Madonna was yours for free
Yes the girl on the half-shell
Could keep you unharmed
Now I see you standing
With brown leaves falling around
And snow in your hair
Now you're smiling out the window
Of that crummy hotel
Over Washington Square
Our breath comes out white clouds
Mingles and hangs in the air
Speaking strictly for me
We both could have died then and there
Now you're telling me
You're not nostalgic
Then give me another word for it
You who are so good with words
And at keeping things vague
Because I need some of that vagueness now
It's all come back too clearly
Yes I loved you dearly
And if you're offering me diamonds and rust
I've already paid
有点小长，听得我心都揪起来了。
